now or never

Story of My Pregnancy

2010-10-22T14:19:00.003+08:00

The untold story of my First trimester (Feb 2010 - Apr 2010)

My other half keep remind me on buying the UPT. As far as I could remember, my period only

elapsed for a week. The date of my first day of last period?? I could remember it clearly

since that was the last day I stay at Kuantan. Ironically, that was the most painful period

I've ever had.

We bought 4 sets of UPT. 3 sets gave a very clear double line and the first set was blurry.

Then, we decided to confrim with the doctor. Doc only confirming my pregnancy through my

story. So, here we go acid folic and all the advices. Two weeks after, I could see some

stain come out from my V. It happen twice. I was so scared. I'm afraid that I will make my

husband and others upset. I actually want to hide my pregnancy from my parents and

colleagues but after the red incident, I have to declare it to everybody. Alhamdulillah,

through my first ultrasound, the heartbeat of my fetus can be seen clearly. Tq Allah so

much.

During my 11 weeks of gestation, I was hit by all the time sickness. It was so bad. I could

not eat anything. Fluid making it worse. Fruits also can't sustain. My weight drop nearly

4kgs. Series of medical leave, moral down, devastated, frustated and emotional unstable.

Luckily husband was very understanding and gave me all his support and love. I was nearly

gave up by my condition. Dr could not do anything. I've been given two jabs at my bun. The

series of yellow, green, blue vormit last until my 20 weeks of pregnancy.

Work, enquires me to travel a lot. Hopefully little one once dah come out nanti takdenye dia

nak ajak parents dia jalan je.

The glory of 2nd trimester. (May 2010 - July 2010)

A lot of people did not notice my small bumps. One day, a colleague ask me when will i get

married. Whohoooo aiyyakk I'm already 6 months pregnant and he did not notice at all. I

could feel the move during my 16 weeks. Rase geli-geli gitu. And the gender reveal also

during my 16 weeks checked up. My EDD kept on changing. This is because he's a bit smaller

than he should.

Mom said it is ok, since I am not a big woman though. Again this time I travel a lot.

However by the end of July, I tot I should have taken the flight ride rather than on the

road since works at site was very tyring.

My last trimester and day counting (Aug 2010- Nov 2010)

Fasting month, thank Allah, I could finish my duty as muslim. Even though I lost my

appetite, my love one still doing ok. As far as I could remember, I cooked almost everyday

(almost la kan). I only go to Bazar Ramadhan twice. Only gain 1kg huhu.

Late September,
Yeah, finally baby's gaining weigh and me also put up more fat. When this story written, I'm

gaining nearly 10kg and my foot starts swollen. I am currently at my 37 weeks of pregnancy.

We both can't wait to hold the baby. Some people said I look so relax.. Tuhan je la tahu tak

kan nak tunjuk gelabah pulak kan.

So, why I cramp all the story in one post is because I think this could be my reference

later one since I never kept any maternity journey.

Di kesempatan ini saya jugak nak meminta maaf kepada semua jika ade salah dan silap. Mohon

doakan semoga segalanya berjalan lancar.

Till next.

I brag when I feel like a loser or i'm just tired

2010-10-06T16:55:00.002+08:00

When this post published, I've already type something and It's gone..

WTH????

Oh even blog pon dah x mau dengarkan saya...

Oh sapa yg sudi

breath in the mud

2010-07-29T16:27:00.000+08:00

adakah ini sekadar permainan emosi atau ape?

I think I'm stuck. Tak tahu apa yg nak dicari, apa yang nak dicapai.

Cube menjadi yang terbaik dalam hidup berumahtangga dan karier. Tapi as normal human being.
Sangat capek deh...

I wanna be a good cook, good wife, good mom, good worker. Tapi bos saya kata she's not good. Other collegue better. Owh...

" i want you to pre-amble this.. i want you to hold responsibility."
"Shut up man!"

Template Baru Mood Baru

2010-07-17T13:24:00.002+08:00

Oh betul lah orang cakap 2nd trimester adalah waktu2 indah dlm kehamilan.
Serious nox lupe dah kisah luka lara muntah hijau kuning segala.

Rasa badan lebih segar, dan ya.. perut yang semakin mengembang. Template baru ini sebenarnye kesinambungan dari perasaan berbunga riang setelah bersama2 suami menyaksikan hidupan dalam perut ini berjoget2 waka waka malam tadi.

Huhu sangat awesome la!!!!!

Uhhh baby blue....

Thanks laling for your support

2010-05-25T10:42:00.001+08:00

Hari hari mendatang saya semakin bertenaga, bersemangat dan lebih ceria kerana lelaki ini

Saya mesti kuat untuk dia.

Cuba Paham

2010-04-20T13:51:00.002+08:00

Saya tau, kalau saya kat tempat bos pon saya mungkin akan rase masalah..
Tapi bos pon kena cuba paham perasaan kita jugak..
Yang lain pon tak kan sedap2 je nak bagi escape clause dan persalahkan orang lain..
Saya selalu percaya, memang percaya Allah kurniakan kami rezeki sekarang, jadi kenapa perlu orang lain persoalkan, kenapa kami yang baru kahwin bagaikan satu kesalahan menerima kurniaan Allah ini.
Tak adil! Tapi sapa saya nak menghukum..
Syukur saya ada suami yang penyabar dan begitu memahami, kalau tak mesti tak tahan dengan perangai saya.
Saya sangat sangat gembira dengan kurniaan ini. Janganlah kerana bos punya kekecewaan menjadi penghalang kebahagian kami.

Cuba paham, manusia merancang Allah menentukan.
Saya sayang dan begitu bersyukur dengan kurniaan ini.

Selamat Hari Jadi En. Ahmad

2010-03-29T15:35:00.001+08:00

Keluarga Saya

2010-03-22T16:54:00.002+08:00

My Stick Family from WiddlyTinks.com

Tiga Bulan Tiga Belas Hari

2010-03-18T12:25:00.002+08:00

Peringatan: Ini sekadar entry peribadi saya

This entry is supposed to be posted way back in December last year. As I've been loading with lot works before I move to KL. (yaaa cerita saya sudah basi)

We would officially like to thank all for making this journey happens and for all the support received.

Apologize for any mistake along the way since we've been so stressed out that time.

I do miss my independent and crazy life as singletini by I CHERISH every moment i belong to him.

May us be forever.

it's been a while

2010-02-25T17:05:00.001+08:00

saya sudah tidak mengupdate dari tahun lepas....

update terkini: saya sudah berkahwin.. inai pon ade tinggal sket2 je lagi ni

update terkini: saya sudah bertukar ke Bangsar...

-end-

Aku wanita biasa

2009-11-19T13:26:00.002+08:00

makin pikir makin pedih
huhhhhhh i'm just need a time off from everything especially works

kepala otak saya penat
sarat dengan macam2 menda

i've just knocked my head to the wall
but its still killing me

i'm hurt
i hurt myself by hurting you

mode : sgt mengantuk dan sakit kepala

kurang 30 hari

2009-11-05T10:54:00.002+08:00

ade 29 hari lagi sebelum hari tuh
29 hari lagi nk bergelar cik
29 hari lagi nak lepas laku hahah
29 hari lagi sebelum bertanggungjawab ke atas diri org lain selain diri sendiri
29 hari lagi membuat keputusan sendiri
29 days left to become a woman to the man i love

BENGANG gila kinzir

2009-11-04T12:21:00.001+08:00

aku paling nyampah bila ade budak bijak, nk tnya soklan tapi taknak rujuk yg pakar, tp tanya aku supaya aku nampak sangat bodoh!

Aku ganyang baru tau, dah tau bijak tanya lagi aku, lempang kang!(#$*%&@

Merepek

2009-10-30T13:44:00.003+08:00

Entry yg tiada sebab malah tujuan...

Bila lagi kita mahu begini ??

Penat

2009-10-26T08:08:00.000+08:00

I'm tired of the devil

hahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

1 kali hua
2 kali hua
3 kali hua

hua hua hua

Mereka yang sedang mengandung jaga diri baik baik

2009-10-22T18:24:00.002+08:00

Oh sangat rase bersalah,

klau jadi ape2 kat ros, tak tau la camna aku nk ngadap dia lagi pasni.

Pasni janji tak mo ajak mak buyung kulu kilir dah. Seb baik darah yang tumpah yg aku tengok tak byk gila. Klau tak mau aku meraung dah kat klinik tuh. Takut seh... haih belum jadik kat diri sendiri lagi.

Kakak clerk sekalian siap dok cita plak pasal pengalaman diorang. Huh gila la. Aku google la menda alah ni. For the first trimester it could be normal to some women and it could not for some other.

Info lanjut rujuk dia ni http://www.epigee.org/pregnancy/bleeding.html.

Dia kata menda ni berlaku masa benih yang dah disenyawa tuh nak implan (menempel) kat uteres. So dia mungkin akan beri gangguan pada lining dalam uterus tuh. Nk cari port yg lebih selesa kot.

Ishk sangat risau la saya. Lepas ni tak leh heret Ros ke mana2 lagi. Bargain hunting for my big day pon kena buat sendiri. Pls jangan involvekan orang ok! In fact saya dah biasa buat semua ni sorang.

So for all mom's to be, please give extra care of yourself, jangan layan sangat anak dara yg suka jalan jalan cari pasal cam I ni hehe.

Ps:/ harini Syida g merewang2 kat bandar time keje lagi. Tapi takpe, saya ganti balik lewat sket, lagipon takde kerja urgent toing toing

Saya Nak Bunga Bulat Bulat Wat Gantung Gantung

2009-10-21T15:12:00.016+08:00

Wah saya sudah hampir ke arah kemuflisan uhuks T_T. Sgt sedih bila kita tau kita nk satu benda tuh, tapi kita rase cam terikat dengan kekangan bajet yg ade. Oh!

Last week ditemani En. Ahmad (oh mungkin ade yg mau muntah hijau bila dengar cerita dating saya haha), saya meneruskan pencarian equipment ke arah hari bahgia kami (uwek kuasa 23). Hehe terpaksa la En. Ahmad jadi bodyguard setiajasa saya. Ke hulu Ke hilir tapi tak grab ape pon lagi. Tegang je muka dia lalalalala

Singgah satu kedai bunga yang memang saya nk pegi dari arituh. Wah rasa mau nangis flower ball cantik tapi harga arghhhh memang tak berbaloi. Seb baik mesen ATM tuh bagi saya kuar duit sket je, klau tak saya beli jugak satu.

Oleh kerana saya mmg gila teringin sgt nak bunga bulat2 gantung dan semestinya kaler merah2, saya decide nak wat sendiri bunga tuh. Ape lagi beli bunga kat mydin tak sampai seploh ringgit, dapat beli 15 kuntum bunga plastik. Try2 buat dapat le separa bulat cam ni..

Yob buat tak tahu je dengan symmetry bunga yg tak symmetrical langsung ni (amatur ok!)

Dah tuh adjust here and there n budget2 saya rase saya perlukan dalam 20 plus plus je untuk betul2 jadikan bunga ni bulat2. Punya la tak sabar buat ni, abis jari luka dok potong bunga guna gunting dek kerana playar tinggal kat umah sinun. So final touch lebih kuang camni la..Tetiba rase ade bakat jadi florist plak muhahahah. Oi sila sedar diri kamu tuh Enjin Nyior huhu

Klau cost buat ni dalam 20 hinggit lebih (diingatkan saya tak dpt bunga dari supplier, just beli kat kedai bunga), saya boleh save separuh bahkan lebih dari kos membeli bunga siap, ape salahnya D.I.Y aje. Lantakla klau orang nampak buwok. Janji aku nampak cantik!

Ps:/
1. Huh ade 45 hari lagi. Macam tak ready je lagi
2. Mungkin ade yang bosan dan meluat, saya mintak maaf

Hush Hush Hush

2009-09-29T11:58:00.002+08:00

Lagu Hush Hush yg selamba je aku tukor ikut sedap aku

I Need You For Me To Be Strong
I Never Needed You For Pointing Out My Wrongs
I Never Needed Pain, I Never Needed Strain
My Love For You Was Strong Enough You Should Have Known

I Never Needed You For Judgement
I Never Needed You To Question What I Spent
I Will Ask For Help but I Take Care Of Myself,
I Know Why You Think You've Got A Hold On Me

And it's A Little Late For Conversations
Isn't There Anything For You To Say
And My Eye's Hurt, Hand's Shiver, So Look At Me And Listen To Me Because
I don't Want Too, Stay Another Minute
I don't Want You, To Say A Single Word
Hush, Hush, Hush, Hush
There Is No Other Way, I Get The Final Say Because,
I don't Want Too, Do This As Forever
I just Want You, There's Nothing Left To Say
Hush, Hush, Hush, Hush
I've Already Spoken, My Heart Is Broken
Baby Hush, Hush

I Never Needed Your Corrections
On Everything From How I Act To What I Say
I Never Needed Words I Never Needed Hurts
I Just Need You To Be There Everyday

I'm Sorry For The Way I Let Go
From Everything I Wanted When You Came Along
But I'm Never Beaten, Broken not Defeated
I Know Next To You Is Yeah Where I Belong

And it's A Little Late For Explanations
Isn't There Anything That You Can DoAnd My Eye's Hurt, Hand's Shiver,
So You Will Listen When I Say

No More Words, No More Lies, No More Crying
No More Pain, No More Hurt, No More Trying

Moral :/ lagu ni takde ape sebanarnya aku saja suka dengar

Ps:/ learning to accept each other's faults - and choosing to celebrate each other's differences - is the one of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing, and lasting relationship

Eid Mubarak

2009-09-18T11:31:00.001+08:00

Saya nk balik Kampung..
Hari ni Half Day je.. hehe

Selamat Hari Raya Semua
Maaf Zahir Batin

Oh!

2009-09-15T11:34:00.003+08:00

Tadi dpt mesej dr Ija, Abah dah boleh discharge dari wad hari ni. Oklah, at least takdela kami risau sgt and tak perlu la saya ulang alik dari Jengka ke Kuantan like everyday. (Everyweek tuh dh macam wajib la).

So back to my wedding progress yang dah macam suam-suam kuku ni. Well, kain yg we bought at Jakel dulu tuh, I decided to only take the satin and go for something yg simple like this. Add up sket sulam2 kaler emas kat bawah baju tuh la, so that bleh match ngn En. Ahmad punye baju. Btw En. Ahmad punye baju dh hantar tempah, cuma sy je belom. Kak Tailor kata lepas raya hantar. Tatutnye.. wat2 tak siap baju teman , adeh! Contingency plan- beli kat Lady first cume kena mintak mak repair jahitan dia. Oh! tak mungkin. Insyaallah sempat kan.

Noted: Pic ni aku smug dr blog sape ntah, tp dh byk dah aku jumpe

Then, on 5th December 09, I decided to go for this, memandangkan tak berjaya berjumpa white+hot red kat wilayah Jengka nun, terpaksa la saya go for option yg a bit maroon la. Boleh la labu. Unfortunately, price yg dioffer kat butik tu sgt la tak munasabah, layakla saya beli je baju tuh siap2 dari sy tempah!

Seterusnya, terpaksala buat keputusan ke butik yg satu ni, because pertama pilihan pelamin yg aku nak (walaupon harganya paling mahal so far), and range of price for the make up, persalinan, aksesories terlebih sket je dr plan asal sy. Harap2nye pelamin dia buat nnt sama la macam yg sy dambakan. Baju ni tak nmpk la cantiknye sbb gantung pada hanger bukan pada patung. Belum ade org pakai lagi, nak je aku request kat akak kedai tuh jgn bagi org sewa smpi aku sewa dulu muhahahhaha.

Last but not least baju utk majlis bertandang. Sy nk buat jugak. Takpe dah janji ngn kak Tailor. Pieces yg macam di bawah cumanye kain lace itu beads dan bunganye warna biru. Just imagine la kain hitam tuh biru. Malangnya saya smpi skrg tak berjaya lagi beli kain kaler kelabu tuh. Ye blame saya En. Ahmad, I failed to decide at very first time. Tp cantik kan. Simpel. Macam saya la.

Utk kasut pulak, I'll go for something like this. Simple dan senang nk pakai. Tu nk pakai masa bernikah and majlis bertandang. Save budget sket.

So far ituh je la progress for my Big day setakat ni. And one more thing wedding ring dah beli, cuma masih belum beli yang Si Dia punye. Saya nekad pas raya ni saya nk cari sungguh2.

Ps:/ hari ni sgt happy, duit simpanan dah cecah 5 angka hehe. Arini tuai duit gaji, esok tuai bonus raya plak. Terima kasih Ya Tuhan.

Entry Gedik Abad Ini

2009-09-02T07:42:00.001+08:00

A) Define gedik pada pandangan peribabi anda?
Budak yg menggeletat, tak senonah..

B) Define gedik pada pandangan peribadi anda?
Happy go lucky, let go everything..

Mana satu saya? Saya rasa klau strangers yang kata kita gedik, then people around gelak, tuh definisi A. Tp if org2 yg biasa dgn saya kata sy gedik itu B. Seingat saya, saya tak pernah menggedik depan dia. Opps to be exact tak pernah gedik dengan dia, selamba je kata aku gedik. Aku gedik, ko ape? Bukan saya ngorat dia pon, atau buat fe’el cam Unty ZAZA-Manjalara.

Huh sangat tak berpuas hati dengan serangan peribadi itu. Serasa mahu bersemuka. Nasib baik mengenang diri berpuasa. Tambah plak dia org tua. Persetankan aje.Bos pon gelak jugak kat aku? Gelak la. KPI engko bior org lain buat, ni tak akak jugak! Harini ingin cuba jadi org yg sgt senyap, lantakla gelap gulita alam perbincangan AKP yang ntah ke mana.

Gedik plus tak percaya pada dia itu, lengkap pakej seorg perempuan tak guna.

Selamat berpuasa semua.

100 Days

2009-08-26T11:38:00.002+08:00

Hari ini 26 Ogos 2009, bermakna 100 hari lagi sebelum my big days.
Sungguh tidak keruan.. minggu2 terkahir bulan 8 ni. Bebanan kerja menimbun.. upset sungguh
Dan lagu ini menjadi anthem saya sekarang T_T.

Kut'rima suratmu t'lah kubaca dan aku mengerti
Betapa merindunya dirimu akan hadirnya diriku
Di dalam hari-harimu bersama lagi
Kau bertanya padaku kapan aku akan kembali lagi
Katamu kau tak kuasa melawan gejolak di dalam dada
Yang membara menahan rasa pertemuan kita nanti
Saat kau ada di sisiku

Semua kata rindumu semakin membuatku tak berdaya
Menahan rasa ingin jumpa
Percayalah padaku aku pun rindu kamu'
Ku akan pulang melepas semua kerinduan yang terpendam
Kautuliskan padaku kata cinta yang manis dalam suratmu
Kaukatakan padaku saat ini 'ku ingin ada di pelukmu
Dan belai lembut kasihmu tak 'kan kulupa s'lamanya
Saat bersama dirimu
Jangan katakan cinta
Menambah beban rasa

Sudah simpan saja sedihmu itu'Ku akan datang, oh..

Kursus

2009-08-18T13:15:00.005+08:00

Well to begin with, skrg br abis kelas Insulation Coordination yg supposedly habis petang ni, but memandangkan participant tak menggalakkan (Fy ended), kelas boleh habis lg cepat. Nak balik ke Kuantan at this moment sure jam tak igt, thus stay kat sini smbil manfaatkan tenet free ada bagusnya (mooning).

Weekend lepas, sy ngn En. Ahmad enroll for kusus kahwin kat well known Zura's Akademik. Klau tak tau, google sndiri la. Tempat tu artis2 msia selalu g, and we dont bother pon, but since En. Ahmad ade hari keluarga pagi tuh and me yg kena travel all the way from kuantan, so kitorg decide amik yg kat Bangsar tuh la ..senang. For Miss Tae Yong Info, kitorg tak bump pon dengan Fasha Sandha. Ade la sorang artis, Aidil AF klau ko kenal la babe. Picture: Aidil ngn tunang tgh beraksi dlm sketch merisik dan bertunang

Modul kursus komprehensif, tp mungkin expectation sy terlalu tinggi kot. So far, bagus byk info yg saya n En. Ahmad gain and Insyaallah untuk dipraktikkan. And modul sketch tuh, sy ngn En Ahmad dah panas buntut dah nk balik, tak perlu kot rasanya. Tp ikutla akademi buat tuh mungkin menda ni dh jadi signature mereka kot, layankan aje. En. Ahmad lagi la siap kena jadi pelakon tambahan lagi .....;

Picture: En. Ahmad kena belakon jadi pengapit, suka tgk dia senyum kontrol... buat lagi boleh. meow meow meow hhahahah

Okla takde la ngantok sgt kusus, maybe sbb byk lawak2 dongdang dari penceramah, nak pulak sy ngn En. Ahmad dok depan nun. Uish tak sempat nk lelap. Salah satu item ke arah majlis kahwin kami dh lengkap hehehheehh

Sambung plak kusus Insulation Coordination kat ILSAS. Huih berpeluh ngira guna hphone calculator. Terpaksa la tunang meminjamkan calculator dia yg ade tulis nama dia besar2 kat belakang tuh...Okla kusus ni, rase nak sambung belaja cepat2 je. Seronok tp could be agak dry sket. At least dah boleh appreciate kenapa kita guna all those rating dlm spec kita before float the tender. Bijok bijok arh.

Balik kuantan plak, 20 hb ni ada satu lagi kusus ke seminar ke simposium tak ingat dah. Hmm layan kan aje, harap2 ade mkn pree. Sy ngn En. Ahmad skrg dlm langkah penjimatan maksimas.

Thats all for today, mau berangkat pulang ke tanah air plak...

Wedding Favor

2009-08-12T10:30:00.002+08:00

Saya demam lagi.. so takleh wat keje, tp sy dtg opis jugak.. bos takde lepak je la. Apelagi masa ni kena manfaat utk buat research pasal kawen.. org lain dh start beli aku baru nak wat research wutudu I'm the super duper busy person in the world (ceh.. perasan).

So I've been thinking on what to serve as my wedding favor? Saya mahu specialize kan untuk kawan2, opismate an rombongan sebelah. For guest yg lain the favor will be the same ajelah..

Almaklumla budget cipot..

So guys any idea?

Wedding Favors List:

1) cupcakes
2) kepek pisang
3) kipas
4) bahulu
5) Hanky
6) Surah Yasin (for org yg bace yasin pagi majlis)
7) Sabun telur ( tak tau nk letak pada bunga or what not)
8) handmade coklat (ada sape2 boleh rekomen?)
9) Bekas telur ceramic englsih style?? wajarkah?
10) Kerongsang?? ahahahha ni delete je no no no no nop
11) Potpouri

Tolong.. mahukan feedback anda kawan2

(mooning)

2009-08-11T08:39:00.005+08:00

Mahu bercuti..

Mahu bertemu mereka semua..

Mood kembali lah...

i need a FOC wedding planner

2009-07-15T17:20:00.003+08:00

weh..... it's 4 months and three weeks to my big day.. yet nothing started. We just focus membeli barang2 hantaran je.. tuh pon phase dia cam dah suam2 kuku je..I've been reading a lot of blogs brides to be related and most of them start earlier..

Too much work to be done lately, almaklumla kompeni sy dan En. Ahmad tahun kewangannya berkahir bulan depan. Well well well sudah pastilah bos2 kami dengki dengan kami yg komited bekerja ni sehinggakan terpaksa bekerja di hujung minggu jugak... sigh :( . Dengan perancangan mulatugas yang tidak relevannya, dengan kontraktor tak dengar katanye, dengan OLTC transformer saya rosak dan takde orang nak baikinye...

Seriously memerlukan advice. Kutanya kakak ipar, dia pon kurang arif sebab everything settled by their parents.. every brides want it to be perfect, tp I dunno what shud i do, where shud i start. I've got the list, but what shoud i ask to the mak andam? what kind of photographer that i want. And yeah seriously my budget shoud be low as possible since i've planned for the best life after wedding. Ok, ok saya memang kedekut! mengaku ajelah.

En. Ahmad, sorry la if sy mengheret kamu ke butik andaman, and usik baju sana, usik baju sini and we both end up keluar macam tuh je.. I haven't really decided yet to custom made my own wedding outfit or to rent it from mak andam.. Klau xde size nnt mak andam alter guna pin je plak, dahtuh bajunye byk yg jarang2.. Arggghhhh tolong saya serabut.. Tp if tempah, bila lagi nk pakai, sure anak2 aku nnt tak sior lagi dengan citarase mak dia yg sempoi ni..

Photographer plak, wajarkah ambil pakej andaman lengkap photographer, atau separate kan both.. Macam mau outdoor tapi kusegan silu.. Eh chop En. Ahmad nak bergambar pakai safety helmet kan?? hahaha ni la bila engineer jumpa engineer.. I wish we meet image consultant rite now muahahha ku merepek ape ni?

4 bulan tuh kena tolak puasa lagi, raya dua kali lagi.. wahhhhaii sempatkah? Tanya Jebat camne kehidupan setelah berkahwin? Jawabnye lega.... wah kenapa kena plan lama2 for majlis yang took 2 days je? Skrg ape yg mampu sy buat, grab a pen, scratch and mark the important dates. And pray for the best.. Tp sy masih mahukan wedding planner yg boleh bagi perkhidmatan percuma. Ade sape sape boleh tolong?? Tolong ye..hehe

Ps:/ Disclaimer . En. Ahmad tunangan sy adalah seperti di bawah, bukan zaizaizaidi ok

Am I getting senile?

2009-06-11T09:20:00.000+08:00

Recently, I do forget lot of thing. First I forgot where the heck I put my SE k770i phone. As the result I lost it.Two times I lost my phone in 3 months.

Then, it was my watch. Mana perginya??? I'm taking out all my shirts in the wardrobe to find it. X jumpe jugak. Place that i regularly put my watch pon xde. I'm suspecting i left it during ablution. Thus, my hand is bare now. Sayang gila, aku beli guna duit bonus tuh :(.

OMG! What a mess, I totally forgot to renew my driving license. Luckily the ISO auditor has triggered my mind during his presentation as he used the example of driving license. phiuhh..Seb baik baru lima hari. Ok harini kena g renew.

Thats why I'm afraid of taking my ring off. Cuak gila klau hilang. Ya Allah mintak jauh la. Well I think I do lost my weight a bit since lately the ring is kinda longgar again. Arituh alter dah ok je fit in my finger. Ni boleh tercabut lagi :(.

Rase2nye la kan, seriously I need to tajamkan minda. Ini dah ade petanda2 nyanyuk, and I'm to young to get nyanyuk k!!!. So what shud I do? Shud I..
1) Play a lot of mind game. Sudoku, crossword ke, atau ape2 saje game
2) Get a physical game. Futsal? Badminton? Senam Robik mungkin?
3) Atau mengikut Miss Tae Yong membaca di pantai?
4) Maybe exploring the art of baking like ija used to do
5) Mmmm gardening semula??
6) Seyesly, need to read more more more often

Sigh...

P.s : I do forget about lot of things lately but I never forget HIM and him.

09.05.09 - p/s: En. Ahmad now is my fiance

2009-05-20T13:09:00.007+08:00

So here it goes..

10 days passed by, tp i just got the time jot this thing.

Well above matter refers, hehehe.

The ring that bind us together

The event happen so fast, moderate yet abah menjemput guest yg agak ramai.
Sorry la pada rakan-rakan yg saya x inform pasal ni, saya buat kecik2 je sebenarnye, tp kawin nnt Insyallah dapat le kad.
Cincin tuh En. Ahmad beli sendiri..Orang ckp CANTIK!!!! pandainye tunang saya, tepok tangan sket.. Gambar hantarn nanti2 la sy upload..saya buat sendiri tau!

This is a picture of us together sebelum En. Ahmad and family balik

Perasaan saya? gembira la. Tp so much thing to do in so little time. Skrg kena jadi a very good manager in managing my very own life, my financial, dan semestinya menjaga hati En. Ahmad.
I may now be part of his life, but as for me he means the world.

saya sangat tak pandai kawal marah sekarang

2009-05-20T12:17:00.002+08:00

ini entry emosi saya part ke dua rasenye..
sangat2 emosi la lately.. harini sorang member tanye asal saya tak attend kursus SEMS kat building ni.. siap leh tambah lagi "Oh kursus dekat tak mau pergi, kursus KL cepat je" ..
ok darah saya berderau .. " Orang kursus yg kasi surat lambat, kursus dah pass dua hari ade baki lagi dua hari, tak kan saya nk join???... I'm not in a good mood today, saya tak tamak la nk claim!!

saya kena tunjuk garang jugak kat opis ni.. saya baik2 orang buli saya menci menci menci
p/s: semakin hari semakin bosan saya dengan kerenah orang kat sini..

tak seronok

2009-05-19T15:52:00.000+08:00

dun feel like working
dun feel like updating the portal
dun feel like going back home
dun feel good
dun feel me

i need sumthing to hold on to
where's my sunshine..

saya nk tidur
saya nk g bawak kete g mana mana je
saya nk duit elaun cepat
saya nk dia ada dekat

syida, tolong jangan layan emosi
syida, g buat keje, keje tuh kewajipan
syida, maafkan aja orang yg buat sakit hati tu
syida.....hepp jangan blog time keje la
hahahahahahahaha

Jeles ke tak??

2009-04-22T08:03:00.001+08:00

anak itik tokwi
mandi dalam kolam
sakit apa tokwi
sakit sendi tulang

ubat ape tokwi
ubat limau lelam
manis ke masam
aku pon x tahu

Lalalalalalalalalalala
I love being myself

babai negative elements shiuh shiuh

2009-04-16T13:36:00.000+08:00

kenapa lately saya selalu kena demam.. dulu dlm 2 tahun sekali baru kena..
skrg macam selalu je.. hari ni dah bersin byk kali, aura-aura nk demam pon dh ade nih...

Shiuh Shiuh pergi segala negatif2 aura dr badan saya...
Mungkin opis sy ni byk sgt elemen negatif yg telah meracun tubuh saya...

Minggu lepas, saya dengan jayanye telah meninggikan suara kepada senior kt opis, nyesal2 jugak, tp puas ati sbb sy dh pertahankan diri saya...(mangsa buli aku ni kt opis)...

Opis sy ni walopon dh dpt persijilan 5S, tp gaya cara kerja masih negatif ar..driver pon melawan ckp bos.. ishk3 ape la nak jadi..

Kak Rin cam dah happy je kt tempat baru..Sy bile lagi?? Skrg bos macam dh byk bagi tanggungjawab kat sy, rase cam nak belajar byk lagi.. tp sy rase inilah masanya kot.. sebelum sy jd lebih gila dengan keje, baiklah sy memikirkan masa depan..

Semalam En. Ahmad ckp, tabiat keje tak boleh ubah. Dia ckp klau sy dh kawin pon klau mmg jenis gila keje, tetap gila keje la..haaaaaaaaa tuh dah macam persepsi negatif kat sy tau.. tak caya la tuh!!! :(

Ok... procastinate! tuh lagi negatif, sbb tuh jugakla sy ketandusan idea utk memblog! Klu saya terus penkan ape idea sure tak jadi carca marba macam ni....

Last but not least, saya sudah semakin berisi, Buktinya, lihat saja perutku... argh sudah ada lapis2 negatif..

Shiuh Shiuh nyah ko lemak dari perot aku.. hahahhaha

opppssss

2009-03-31T09:43:00.001+08:00

OMG saya telah terdelete 3 entries sebelum ini
waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

walimah

2009-02-05T11:07:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah akhirnya…

Tahniah teman2 PEP 30 yang dh sah dalam jawatan. Tahniah dpt gaji baru. Tahniah jugak pada yg baru bertunang, baru berkahwin, bakal berkahwin, bakal dapat anak, and bakal buat anak.

Last 2 week, Nek request semua balik kg. I tot ade actvt beh ke ape ke… saje2 je dh lama x kumpul ramai2. Takpe at least dpt jugak menggomol cousin2 yg extremely hyper belaka2 ni. Mak sedara plak bagi persoalan selalu sgt dah sy g kenduwi kawin org, tunang org, tgk anak org… “Kak Ni bila lagi??” Seperti biasa gak sy x tau nk jwb ape.

Ckp pasal kawin ni, pernah gak sy terpikir, kt MSIA ni nk kawin la susah sekali. Kena attend kursus la (ni acceptable sbb byk ilmu leh belaja), test segala, HIV test lagi, pastu yg supremely buat kapel2 slalu bertekak (melalui pengalaman teman dan kak ipar) ialah masa nk isi form kawin. Mula2 pengantin pompuan dulu kena isi form tuh kat kampong dia, pastu kena serahkan kat bakal suami supaya di isi kat pejabat kadi kampung suami, pastu baru return balik kt pengantin pompuan utk proses..Cycle ni kena siapkan 3 bulan je.

Wowowowowo and kebanyakan org sekarang bukannye tinggal kt kampong halaman. Seyesly it requires time and cost. Yelah dah le nk balik kena mintak cuti, dah tuh kena travel lagi, dahtu dh balik mesti kena hulur duit lagi….Belum masuk dugaan hantaran mahal la, belanja segala la etc etc. Macam2 la. Tp klau look at +ve side, kita leh uji la sejauh mana pasangan tuh boleh bersabar.. Tp mungkin sbb ni jugak ramai yg tak nak commit. Sy angkat tangan ..no komen!

Ape2 pon (commercial sket ni), hidup adalah seperti yang anda rancangkan, yg penting kita enjoy!

ps:/sbnarnye sy dah create post ni 2 minggu lepas tp ade problem blogger di opis x mampu mengupdate

REHAB

2009-01-16T14:42:00.000+08:00

I’m addicted. What more can I say. Need to sober but surely not to knit likewise Meredith Grey .They tried to make me go for REHAB, I say No No

However, I‘ve been thinking of the way to distract myself from this addiction. If I’m not my life would be extremely miserable. Seriously I couldn’t handle this LDR’s thingy.

Thing that I do to distract myself from my ADDICTION:

1) Watch American Idol. I never hate Simon (this is definitely worked out)
2) Finish my Prison Break Episodes. If none left, watch it again until you supremely remember the line. I score A1 for remembering the line from episodes of Season 1 and 2. (can’t get enuff of Wenworth Miller yaa- season 3 and 4 dah start ngarut)
3) Change my Desktop Wallpaper (hard to do, but once I did it, wahhh can handle)
4) Switch Off my handphone whenever I feel like addicted.
5) Do groceries! Shop girl
6) Cooking or Baking- make sure that it taste BETTER! (Izy Steven’s way)
7) Housekeeping. Change the placement of bed, cupboard and boxes.
8) Gardening. Sampai skrg sy belom tanam ape2 kat dpn rumah. Rumput dah bape kali cabut dah, tanah dah bape kali gembur dah. Buy the seed Syida!
9) Dun be ALONE : strictly agreed
10) WORK.

Hi my name is Syida and I’m an addict. I’m addicted to you :D

Boikot

2009-01-15T15:56:00.000+08:00

ok mmg kejam.. every news, every paper, every headlines, everyblog pon setuju dgn memboikot..
wahhhhh tp semalam sy tgk American Idol. Miss Taeyong pon tengok hahaha and I'm pretty sure a lot of humankind watched it last nite...
dun get me wrong, i strictly support boycotting them and wut mess serta kezaliman yg they caused..but can't resist American Idol la :)

ps:/ sy semakin ketandusan idea..sy hilang keseronokan.. kenape?
mungkin swing je kot (wahhhh sedapkan hati)

babai 2008, surely i'll remember December 2008

2008-12-23T11:06:00.003+08:00

wah.. awesome gila la. Bulan 12 ni rezeki murah betul,
mula2 gaji, pastu claim (masih NI klau di comparekan dgn opismate), then today bonus!!
mmg mahsyuk la. Alhamdulillah.

Seronok dpt kongsi rezeki sama mak abah, adik2, kengkawan n definitely utk diri sendiri. Tp byk2 pon kena berpada, kena simpan jugak sket. Dlm kepala dok pikir, spoiler for kesatria, new sunglasses, spa treatment, another jeans, baju keje. Yummylicious la. Hai betul2 bahagia bulan ni :)

Bday this year mmg different la, no more frens around but happily celebrated with my family coz the next day was hari raya raya haji. Dah tua rupenye den ni.. paling hampagas sekali kena kupas buah nyor nak buat pulut kt umah nek masa fetch dia. Hebat gak la 4 biji sy ngn ija berjaya kupas. Lambat sbb asyik sms ngn En. Ahmad, Ija bengang je hahha.

Time raya haji semua gathered kat rumah.. even rumah tgh renovate that time, tp syok je. Siap kena beli another comforter sbb dah x cukup tilam and toto. Pastu baby anjang ade, wah syok2 dpt kiss budak2. Cousin mmg hingar la, tp takpe, sbb rumah kita dah lama xde budak kecik since my cousin, Syirah. Syirah leh plak kasi kad bday, suoh sy bawak balik boypren, betul la budak2 skrg!

Pastu masuk opis tah bape hari je, g kusus, g outstesen, cuti lagi.Rasenye bulan ni 9 hari je dok opis. Patut la happy semacam je sy. G KL dis time...serunut sangat. Dating ngn En. Ahmad. G kenduwi ngn En Ahmad lalalalala. 3 kali tgk wayang ngn En Ahmad ahhhh keren bangat dong waduh2! Dlm 2 minggu ni je 5 movie dah sy nonton..mmg gila.Penat2 jugak tp berbaloi bagi sy cos after this jauh :(

Byk kenangan cerita memori indah bulan ni. Bahgia hati, skrg selera makan sy dah datang balik....hehehe. Sonok ar kuat makan ni, rase cergas sket, dulu x selera makan, i feel weeker. So semoga hari2 mendatang n tahun baru menjanjikan yg terbaik buat kita semua. Surely saya akan terus mengingati Disember tahun ini. Selamat datang tahun baru.

Ps:/ Sy suke kebetulan yg sy terpaksa outstesen weekend ni and early January.

7 Eleven.... Tag game lagi!

2008-12-11T11:27:00.004+08:00

7 Fakta tentang anda:

1. merelease kan tension dgn memasak @ mencuci tandas
2. suke menyanyi terutamanya ketika di dalam bilik mandi
3. suke main dgn cousin2 (adik2 semua udah besar)
4. surf for evrything in the net
5. berjalan laju
6. suka buang masa jugak
7. pemalu (hahahah sebaliknye la)

7 Nama pangilan anda:
1. Syida
2. Noni
3. Syahida
4. Kak Ni
5. SyidaKadir
6. Maksutimah
7. Nor Syahida

7 perkara yang berharga:
1. Family
2. Kawan2
3. Sedara Mara
4. Karier
5. Kesihatan
6. Kasih Sayang
7. Harta

7 perkara yg menakutkan anda di dunia ni:

1. Air (takut lemas)
2. Mati (nak pulak when no one around)
3. Kematian org yg sy sayang
4. Kena Rogol
5. katak (amfibia-geli sebenarnye)
6. Terluka @ dipermainkan
7. kosong, sepi

7 Lagu yang punya kenangan @ memberi kesan mendalam pada anda:

1. Negaraku- saya sayangkan Malaysia
2. Fall for You (by 2ndhand Serenade , sy mengharapkan ade org akan fall for me and mean it)
3. Cuba (by Faizal Tahir)
4. Aku Cinta Padamu (by Ct nurhaliza- sbb lagu tu saya minat CT)
5. There's hope (by India Arie- whenever i felt down, lagu ni mampu motivate saya)
6. Unpretty (by TLC- we do thing to impress people that we do hate)
7. Beautiful (by Christina Aguilera, oh i feel beautiful bila nyanyi lagu ni)

7 Ayat yg kerap disebut oleh anda (saya tukar jd words):

1. "Wahhhh"
2. "Ntoh"
3. "Alaaaa"
4. "Seyes??"
5. "Oh My.."
6. "Weih"
7. "Chill la"

7 Perkara yg Buat anda berkecil hati(kurang 7 sbb sy selalu besar hati la :-D):
1. bos x igt nama saya
2. long x g konvo saya tp g konvo adik ipar dia
3. orang perli fizikal apperance saya (nk umpat takpe, jgn perli depan bleh x?)
4. ...
5. ...
6. ...
7. ...

7 cara memujuk anda (senang je, sy jarang merajuk la):

1. Say sorry like you mean it
2. cakap perkara positif
3. jangan tegur klau saya tengah temper
4. ubah topik cakap pasal benda lain
5. bagi saya space nak bersendiri jap (biasanye saya muhasabah blk time tuh)
6. buat saya senyum plzzz
7. jangan ungkit

7 perkara pertama anda:

1. saya anak perempuan dan cucu perempuan pertama (belah mak ar)
2. TNB - my first real job
3. Kesatria - boypren yg saya bawa ke mana2
4. Pertama kali rase ehem2 kat org iaitu dgn En. Ahmad :-)
5. Michael Owen- tahun 1998 buatkan saya minat ngn English football sblm ni sy penyokong kelab bolasepak Pahang je
6. My 1st period
7. looking fwd for my first real date

7 mangsa seterusnya yg harus di TAG:

1. May
2. Lanny
3. Kaki Bangkang
4. Bojol
5. Kid Kimi
6. Aniey
7. Sape2 rase nak di tag buat je...

Resolusi Evolusi 2009 tunggu saya!

2008-12-05T14:10:00.003+08:00

So for the next two days, umur saya akan bertambah setahun lagi. Well saya bukan la jenis orang yg tertunggu2 kehadiran bday, and in fact kadang2 saya tak buat ape2 pon during that day. Pada saya cuma pertambahan setahun dari usia dan setahun jugaklah makin dekatnye kita dengan kematian kita.

Bulan ni saya kongsi bday dgn Britney Spears, Michael Owen, Frank Sinatra, Kim Basinger, Emily Dickinsen, Woddy Allen, Tyra Bank dan banyak lagi la. Tp bday saya senang je nak ingat pada sape yg suke history. The day Pearl Habour had been bombed! bila??Aiyaaa 7 December la, tak tau sejarah ke????

Tapi saya percaya dgn mengingati tarikh tuh, buatkan saya kembali alert. Back on track klau2 dah tersasar dari target @ cita2 dsb. Dalam 24 tahun saya hidup ni, is my existence has ever been a proud of someone or something? Yeah. I'm sure I am. Jadi dalam dok menkaji balik kebergunaan saya kat dunia ni, saya pon dgn semangatnye nak buat new year resolution and definitely akan mula skrg.

Saya tak mahu mencarut lagi (Ssh nk ubah bila menda jadi habit, tp sy pasti akan cuba)
Saya tak nak nyusahkan mak n abah saya
Saya akan terus mengamalkan gaya hidup sihat
Saya mahu kuat bekerja dan tak mahu berdalih2
Saya mahu sentiasa optimis,terus memotivasikan diri dan org sekeliling saya
Saya tak mahu bergosip (saya mmg x suka gosip, nak pulak bila saya dh penah jadi mangsa!)

Saya mahu terbang (saya masih belum pernah naik kapal terbang :-( sepanjang hidup)
Saya mahu cuba benda2 baru, berkenalan dgn ramai org
Saya nak manage financial saya betul2 (mana la tau kalau2 saya dah nak ehem2)
Saya mahu memberi bkn setkat menerima(skrg sy dh start kasi duit kt adik2 boleh la!)
Saya mahu terus menjadi miss indipendent (tp skrg sy cam selalu rely kt sorang kawan)
Dan yang paling penting saya nak terus menambahkan keimanan pada-Nya.

Ps:/ hadiah hari lahir paling bermakna dalam hidup saya ialah adanya orang di sekeliling yg sentiasa " are there for me, throuh joy and pain, nite and day". Hanya Allah yg boleh membayar jasa kalian. Shukran Kathiran, Jazakallahu Khayran.

HUJAN

2008-11-26T14:24:00.002+08:00

kat luar hujan... muram suram sejuk..
I miss the sun
I miss my sunshine

ps:/ banyak betul perkara pelik berlaku bulan ni... harap bulan depan lebih indah, cerah, ceria

tolietries for men

2008-11-24T16:13:00.004+08:00

curi2 update blog even tho bos around ni... so for men out there. Set ni cam bagus untuk dijadikan hantaran kepada sesiapa yg bakal berkahwin..ataupon utk dihadiahkan pada yg tersayang...

advert picture courtesy from http://liverpoolfc.tv

ps:/ masih berfikir gwyneth paltrow vs beyonce knowles (diamond vs white linen)....huh

The World Not Just Revolve Around Me!

2008-11-21T14:20:00.003+08:00

Ida and Tania: You are the third team to complete The Amazing Race!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wah what a good feeling! Seriously I madly want they to win the race, but final 3 is totally awesome for these hot moms who never backpack from their crib. So they made it. As for me, I always really wanted to enter The Explorace, but dunno how to swim. Very unfortunate, by the time I start to learn several simple step in swimming, I've been transfered to Kuantan. The pools is yet here but CLOSED??

Forget bout it because today is my bad hair day. I woke up in the morning, felt like not going to the office, still forced my self. Start my Kesatria, smell something bad. Look everywhere around and gotcha, underneath the co-pilot seat, there's a water ingressed.

Go to Potong Serbis, have to left my car there for I dunno how many days. Luckily this weekend outages are canceled. My phone definitely rosak. " I can't hear you!". However after I sat at my table, I found peaceful. I got calm. Those motivated mail from a fren (u definetely know who) gimme a fresh tots.

So relief. I still kept the mail sent by netty " NEVER SAY U ARE UNLUCKY". Because the misserable we ever think we are, they are still unfortunate people out there. The world just not revolve around me. It just happen that sometimes Allah want to test me with those. To test how faith I am. .... Hasbunallahuwanikmalwakil

How lucky I am, because I can walk and run freely

PS:/ BTW to MISS TAEYONG, I'm bought the Inner Shine Berry because I want to kill with my eyes. hahahhaha (aku tak support Diana Danielle mahupun Nurul Shuhada Nurul Ain yang tak kapel dgn Dr Faiz tuh ok!)

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One ~ (Nov 22 - Dec 21 )

2008-11-20T16:14:00.002+08:00

Mary Xavier forwarded this thing to me. So far it's quite true. I believe it such a criminal to blog during office hour, but seriously without project in hand, I fell so bored! Let check this out

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One ~ (Nov 22 - Dec 21 )

Good-natured optimist. - saya self motivated walopon seringkali mudah mengalah
Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome ). - sbb tuh saya suka imbau kenangan lama, saya cari lagu moffats sbb saya nak rase perasaan muda remaja tuh!
Indulges self. - yess saya suka buat treatment kat diri sendiri. Cost n time effisyen
Boastful. - saya percaya saya agak selfish. Saya pasti cari muka saya dulu dlm gambar beramai ok!
Likes luxuries and gambling.- saya suka benda branded, tapi tak suke beli la
Social and outgoing. - Saya boleh kategorikan diri sosial dgn org yg saya rase boleh saja. tp sy mmg easygoing
Doesn't like responsibilities. - saya bertanggungjawab tp saya prefer klau sy di guide
Often fantasizes. - mmm ni boleh disalahtafsirkan ok! Saya berfantasi ttg masa depan saya
Impatient. - terburu2 tuh mmg sifat saya. Saya mudah temper klau x kena gaya
Fun to be around. - ye ye ye betul!
Having lots of friends. - masih betul, saya kawan ngn semua org. guard pon boleh jd kawan saya, pakcik makcik, nenek. Mak saya pon kawan saya
Flirtatious. - saya x pandai menggoda. saya tunggu org goda saya, sbb tuh tak tergoda lagi
Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. - ye mmg betul, saya tiada baju kecik2, baju saya loose belake. tp kat umah saya pakai la
Beautiful inside and out - ini tiada komen, u decide la

Happy birthday to all Sagittarius Babes. Adios

comunication breakdown

2008-11-20T09:41:00.002+08:00

Mula-mulanya saya ingat saya mengalami masalah pendengaran...
sakit telinga saya bila saya himpit telepon rapat-rapat dengan cuping..
cakap dgn mak, tetiba suara mak sayup2 je..oh nikmat mendengar sudah kena tarik ke?
kawan2 call pon mcm ade gangguan je...argh saya tak mau pekak di usia muda
baru teringat saya suka pasang radio kuat2 dalam kereta. Sebab tuh ke saya pekak??

La.... rupe-rupenya handphone saya yg breakdown, sengal sungguh! Tak dgr org cakap ape2. Penat aku dok helo, helo helo. Dah cam org tak siuman je.
Beli handphone baru takde dlm list shopping akhir tahun ni... Tp nak wat camne tepon saya rosak! Baiki je lah, ni la sbb utama saya tak suke telepon jenama Nor Kiah ni. Sensitif sangat!

PS:/ sebenarnye budget saya ade tapi utk beli t-shirt liverpool fc for ladies, ala yg gambar angsa tuh. Plus nak tambah LFC merchandise dlm kesatria saya la.

HEELS VS BOOTS

2008-11-19T16:15:00.005+08:00

I'm not a big fan of shoes. I don't really have that much. But I do have shoes for different occassion, different needs i.e sport shoes, safety boots, heels for dinner, heels for office purpose, slipper, sandals.

Time passed by, I start wearing heels during my final year in Uni. Of course for a Function, not to the class- (gi kelas saya pakai selipar jepun, and ade org kate selipar toilet). But now I really prefer the heelies. At least I thought I increase my height by 2 or 3 inches. People won't really "look down" on me.

But boots are essential to the sites. Becoz i adhere to safety policy, I must wear it whenever I go to site. For GOD sake, I only obey to the rule at the beginning of my career. But seriously, safety boots protect ourself whilst heelies only causes pain. Yeah yeah not to forget the beauty part ok!

Like it or not, I have to wear both. Luckily I can run with both (tapi berlari-lari anak la)

Noted: Gambar sekadar ilustrasi, tapi sepatu saya dua2 warna hitam. dan kompani saya tak pernah kasi saya safety shoes lagi. Oleh itu, saya pakai yg masa uni punye.

Happy Anniversary My Dear PEP 30

2008-11-18T12:52:00.009+08:00

Wahhhhaaaaa, esok genapla setahun aku dlm dis company. Rasenye perkataan anniversary tu cam x bape seswai, tp bcoz sayut dah start ckp anniversary, aku pon terikut2 menggunakannya. Cepat betul masa berlalu So I start with this picture, this is during my orientation at ILSAS. Not knowing each other and helf a very indeed semangat nak bekerja.

I lurve this one. Lama jugak jadi desktop background aku. Time OB. Met all those crazy peoples, yet make me cherish the friendship most. OB byk bukak mata aku to Allah, to life, to people, to family, to company. Like almost everything la

Ini plak, time convocation. Ade plak org ckp aku pakai suit cam peguam. No way ok! hahaha. Igt lagi time tuh sape ntah mamat kerempeng tinggi2 tuh kata aku pakai make up tebal. Sorry ok, I'm not even wear a foundation pon, just the powder, blush and shadow wahhh plus the lip balm bukan lipstick ok!

Team building: Paintball game..Tuhan je tau perasaan masa tuh.. Someone's wife start buat muka. Salam aku pon tak ingin. Tp ini besh, team sama ngn bos yang telah menembak team sendiri. WTF!

Last but not least. Latest picture taken before my immediate buat aku punye evaluation.. aku jdi inventory girl je dat time n scrap all those unwanted paper. Ikut hati aku semua unwanted hahahah.

So.. I do cherish all those moments. Masa betul2 mendewasakan. Tak sabar nak dapat confirmation letter. Tak dapat nak bayangkan how proud my parent would be later on.

TQ to people behind this success especially Pn Ramlah, En. Juzaini (for the termendous interview), Syazwan (sbb tlg amikkan offer letter aku), My Uniten frens, Pn Razana, Kak Syakila,

Tahanian : Sayut, Zaidi, Bojol, Ajiz, Rudy, Apiz, Syuk, Jebat, Acop, Yati, Sharmila n of coz Jaz.

Officemate for always helping yet taichi gak sometime: ZulA, ZulD, Razman, RosilJo, Boy, Ezairi, Yasir, Ros, K Rin, K Mahani (for claim hahaha), K. Fauziah, K Ita, Lan (walopon kejap, i know u r the best), My Fav Technician: Aziz Tuk, Mohit (sbb perli aku tak kan technician nak ajar engineer semua benda), En Syed, Mahyudin, n all la penat la nak ingat nama. Not to forget my big bos for alway forgetting me in the meeting, forget to introduce me to the guess, forget to put my name in the list of project.

Walaupon ajaran or pertolongan yg kecil, Seriously I do appreciate.

kecik ati saya

2008-11-14T13:03:00.000+08:00

Saya tak berkira pasal kerja, Saya bersyukur sebab yayasan, saya mampu belajar kat University yg kos dia mmg tinggi la dibandingkan dengan UIA-IPTA yang saya dapat.

Saya berterima kasih jugak kat komponi sbb membantu perubatan mak saya. (Dialisis 3 kali seminggu , well satu sesi kosnye RM120).

Saya membesar dalam warga komponi ni, ayah saya, pakcik saya, arwah tok saya ..(not to mention sedara2 saya yang lain)..

Saya rasa saya kerja kuat, tapi saya rasa bos saya tak pikir macam tuh..

Mungkin dia rase saya masih mentah, saya tak capable, saya tak competent.

Tp ape yg saya dapat ni buatkan saya kecik ati sangat.

Saya kerja malam, saya kerja weekend, saya kerja time cuti. Orang lain datang ke? Orang lain dah kawin, dah ade komitmen sendiri, ada anak2..

Saya takde kehidupan ke? takde keluarga ke? takde ibubapa ke?

Saya tak kisah... sbb saya rasa saya mmg gila kerja. Tapi mungkin tak cukup gila, tak cukup hebat, saya sedar saya bnyk kekurangan. Sbb saya cuma penyudah kerja2 org yang perlukan bantuan. Saya tugas2 khas..

Mungkin HR silap hantar saya ke sini. Saya lagi bagus duduk di keselamatan mungkin.

Pn Zuraidah sgt helpful masa tuh.. saya pon happy, tp saya ingat balik ke negeri saya lebih baik, rupenye saya dah biasa dgn Kuala Lumpur. Susah saya nak tinggalkan kebahgiaan saya tuh..

Naib Presiden bakal melawat tak lama lagi, saya cuma boleh jd diri saya .. terpencil, kerdil macam x ade ape2 la.

Saya tahu Allah ade plan yang lebih baik untuk saya. Mungkin ini turning point saya. sebelum ni saya takde guts nak mintak tukar, tp skrg Insyaallah, Saya dah kumpulkan tenaga. Insyaallah saya akan cuba untuk fikirkan diri saya pulak, dan bukan org lain lagi.

Kodak Moment - NONI

2008-11-11T15:21:00.000+08:00

Ini NONI. Masa ni umur dia 3 atau 4 tahun kot.. Lupe plak nak tnye. Arwah tok kata dia punya pipi cam kuih pau. Hidung plak cam kuih koci. Wonder why semua makanan yg reflect those feautures.

Tp sekarang NONI dah semakin besar, dah pandai cari duit sendiri. Dah pon beli kete sendiri, dan dah tak comel lagi!.Pipi dah tersorong, hidong dah macam jambu air. Dah pandai melawan, dah pandai nak stress2.

Penat gila cari gambar NONI yang cute ni... last2 jumpe gambar ni je. Boleh la nak show off kat kawan tuh..Klau jumpe gambar NONI yg lain, well yang lebih cute x sabar nak cari. Tp rumah tgh renovate.

Ps:/ Kadang2 jadi kanak2 senang. Hidup ini memang ?@#$%.. Tapi esok kan masih ade

TAGGING GAME - sila response sesiapa yg saya tag ye

2008-11-06T17:59:00.000+08:00

I’ve been tagged! Hell yeah I’m disclose all this because I tot it’s all over. My teenage era has ended. But to think about it and relate to others might be fun!

1) When first time you meet him/her?
Met him (actually notice him) in my English Class, Sem 1 … sweet smile ever, that’s Rizal. My first crush. Gila mengusha dia, sampai my final year! Opss and finally I got a chance to take a pic with him during convocation… no big deal, I’m over it! He’s a Chelsea supporter.

2) What do you feel?
Usha like a freak (paparazzo), frust bila dia couple ngn Siti (jgn marah ye ti). I am happy if he happy… Lucky me, never see them dating! The first person get to know this is Izma then Mimi then Wani.

3) What you feel right now?
I’m over it… It just a feeling masa mula2 nak kenal cinta. In fact it just a crush.

4) If your enemy do anything that you hate, what you will do first?
Buat muke la

5) Give 5 characters that have at you.....
a) Outspoken
b) Energetic (energetic orange that’s my car)
c) Hardworking
d) Easily Yield but Self Motivated
e) Kind

6) If he/her has broke your heart, what your action?
He won’t because NO him at all. Aku tunggu datang sendiri. Nak cari kang susah gak

7) What character you like toward him/her? (Ubah skit soalan ni jadi character that I look forward to- I use the same ok midah)
a) love me for who I am
b) Career oriented
c) physical fit
d) the one I love to talk with
e) Early bird (x suke laki bangun lambat, sbb aku pon lambat nnt semua lambat)

8) Who is the name of no.1?
Allah S.W.T – sama la masih ade iman ku ini

9) If your lover become your enemies, is it you will hate him/her?
I never confess with him my crush. In this blog is the first time ever. So he’s neither a friend nor enemy just a guy that I knew. And seriously, I’m over it and move on.

10) The most memorable thing he/her had done to you?
He did nothing. We aren’t that close.. oh maybe hati I berbunga2 time dia took my picture nak set dalam phone dia ..hahhaha poyo la. Sorry Rizal aku mmg syok gila time tuh

11) The most thing that he/her have said to you?
Liverpool looser kot.. ntah but he’s a chelse fan though.

12) To the person that always support to you?
I love you guys forever. Thank you for understanding

I’m going to tag Mimi, sayut, sharul Z, Lanny, netty and Ezairi. Layan kan aje… bos xde muahahhaha

Are we ready to change??

2008-11-06T11:05:00.000+08:00

American have already proved it.

Will -i- am going to see it in our nation?

Citing kata2 dari sorang tokoh at my place (sebelumnya Pensyarah di UiTm Jengka)
" Kita tak ade hak untuk memilih bangsa apekah kita ni, tapi kita diberi akal untuk memilih agama kita.... Kalau kita selamanye pikir bangsa kita bangsa Melayu adalah mulia di seantero dunia, salahkah mereka yg dilahirkan dalam bangsa lain?? Selamanye kah kita ni mulia?? Ingat bangsa bukan pilihan tapi AGAMA adalah pilihan kita !" Takbir Allahuakbar

Ps:/ Michelle Obama skrg dah jadi style icon.. hebatlah

Project's Ladies

2008-11-05T16:58:00.000+08:00

Here are the ladies of my office. There are seven of us out of 42 mates. I wonder who's the cutest .... I go for the green one!

ps:/ macam team Pelita manis je..

2008-11-05T08:34:00.000+08:00

Sort, Set In Order, Shine, Standardise and Sustain could be troublesome especially to us project engineer (you know why). But believe me it is THERAPEUTICS.

Look for what we have in life

2008-11-04T16:47:00.000+08:00

Being single is suck. That what i thought when i've been accused for having an affair with someone's husband. Office gossip surely make my life missreable yet tiring. Thankful to Allah, I still have friends around to consolidate and be very understandable all the times.

A very good friend of mine said that the best we could do is viewing the marriage as bad thing. " Sure or not???". Let put it this way, marriage is NOT a bad thing but being SINGLETINI at this time is preferrable. Why?

I can go wherever I want without asking permission first
I can watch football at Mamak in the middle of nite of course
I can use my money all I want
I don't bother someone is hungry at home
I don't have to remember any significant date yet not celebrating it
I can put extra effort in works
I can date
Feel free to be out of station and again hang out with frens
Still carrying a 'Miss' title, which make me feel young
Spare me some 'times' for myself

Well, I'm not saying that I don't want to get married but this is just not the time yet. In fact I'm now just reach my 24th years of alive. I do believe there's a good man out there and when the time is coming, I would be ready of course. After all, we are the one who determine our happiness.

'Look for what we don't have in life, we don't have anything. But if we look for what we have in life, the we have everything'.

Be thankful and cherish your life.