Story of My Pregnancy

The untold story of my First trimester (Feb 2010 - Apr 2010)

My other half keep remind me on buying the UPT. As far as I could remember, my period only

elapsed for a week. The date of my first day of last period?? I could remember it clearly

since that was the last day I stay at Kuantan. Ironically, that was the most painful period

I've ever had.

We bought 4 sets of UPT. 3 sets gave a very clear double line and the first set was blurry.

Then, we decided to confrim with the doctor. Doc only confirming my pregnancy through my

story. So, here we go acid folic and all the advices. Two weeks after, I could see some

stain come out from my V. It happen twice. I was so scared. I'm afraid that I will make my

husband and others upset. I actually want to hide my pregnancy from my parents and

colleagues but after the red incident, I have to declare it to everybody. Alhamdulillah,

through my first ultrasound, the heartbeat of my fetus can be seen clearly. Tq Allah so

much.

During my 11 weeks of gestation, I was hit by all the time sickness. It was so bad. I could

not eat anything. Fluid making it worse. Fruits also can't sustain. My weight drop nearly

4kgs. Series of medical leave, moral down, devastated, frustated and emotional unstable.

Luckily husband was very understanding and gave me all his support and love. I was nearly

gave up by my condition. Dr could not do anything. I've been given two jabs at my bun. The

series of yellow, green, blue vormit last until my 20 weeks of pregnancy.

Work, enquires me to travel a lot. Hopefully little one once dah come out nanti takdenye dia

nak ajak parents dia jalan je.

The glory of 2nd trimester. (May 2010 - July 2010)

A lot of people did not notice my small bumps. One day, a colleague ask me when will i get

married. Whohoooo aiyyakk I'm already 6 months pregnant and he did not notice at all. I

could feel the move during my 16 weeks. Rase geli-geli gitu. And the gender reveal also

during my 16 weeks checked up. My EDD kept on changing. This is because he's a bit smaller

than he should.

Mom said it is ok, since I am not a big woman though. Again this time I travel a lot.

However by the end of July, I tot I should have taken the flight ride rather than on the

road since works at site was very tyring.

My last trimester and day counting (Aug 2010- Nov 2010)

Fasting month, thank Allah, I could finish my duty as muslim. Even though I lost my

appetite, my love one still doing ok. As far as I could remember, I cooked almost everyday

(almost la kan). I only go to Bazar Ramadhan twice. Only gain 1kg huhu.

Late September,
Yeah, finally baby's gaining weigh and me also put up more fat. When this story written, I'm

gaining nearly 10kg and my foot starts swollen. I am currently at my 37 weeks of pregnancy.

We both can't wait to hold the baby. Some people said I look so relax.. Tuhan je la tahu tak

kan nak tunjuk gelabah pulak kan.

So, why I cramp all the story in one post is because I think this could be my reference

later one since I never kept any maternity journey.

Di kesempatan ini saya jugak nak meminta maaf kepada semua jika ade salah dan silap. Mohon

doakan semoga segalanya berjalan lancar.

Till next.

I brag when I feel like a loser or i'm just tired

When this post published, I've already type something and It's gone..

WTH????

Oh even blog pon dah x mau dengarkan saya...

Oh sapa yg sudi

breath in the mud

adakah ini sekadar permainan emosi atau ape?

I think I'm stuck. Tak tahu apa yg nak dicari, apa yang nak dicapai.

Cube menjadi yang terbaik dalam hidup berumahtangga dan karier. Tapi as normal human being.
Sangat capek deh...

I wanna be a good cook, good wife, good mom, good worker. Tapi bos saya kata she's not good. Other collegue better. Owh...

" i want you to pre-amble this.. i want you to hold responsibility."
"Shut up man!"

Template Baru Mood Baru

Oh betul lah orang cakap 2nd trimester adalah waktu2 indah dlm kehamilan.
Serious nox lupe dah kisah luka lara muntah hijau kuning segala.

Rasa badan lebih segar, dan ya.. perut yang semakin mengembang. Template baru ini sebenarnye kesinambungan dari perasaan berbunga riang setelah bersama2 suami menyaksikan hidupan dalam perut ini berjoget2 waka waka malam tadi.

Huhu sangat awesome la!!!!!

Uhhh baby blue....

Thanks laling for your support

Hari hari mendatang saya semakin bertenaga, bersemangat dan lebih ceria kerana lelaki ini

Saya mesti kuat untuk dia.

Cuba Paham

Saya tau, kalau saya kat tempat bos pon saya mungkin akan rase masalah..
Tapi bos pon kena cuba paham perasaan kita jugak..
Yang lain pon tak kan sedap2 je nak bagi escape clause dan persalahkan orang lain..
Saya selalu percaya, memang percaya Allah kurniakan kami rezeki sekarang, jadi kenapa perlu orang lain persoalkan, kenapa kami yang baru kahwin bagaikan satu kesalahan menerima kurniaan Allah ini.
Tak adil! Tapi sapa saya nak menghukum..
Syukur saya ada suami yang penyabar dan begitu memahami, kalau tak mesti tak tahan dengan perangai saya.
Saya sangat sangat gembira dengan kurniaan ini. Janganlah kerana bos punya kekecewaan menjadi penghalang kebahagian kami.

Cuba paham, manusia merancang Allah menentukan.
Saya sayang dan begitu bersyukur dengan kurniaan ini.

Selamat Hari Jadi En. Ahmad

Keluarga Saya

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Peringatan: Ini sekadar entry peribadi saya


This entry is supposed to be posted way back in December last year. As I've been loading with lot works before I move to KL. (yaaa cerita saya sudah basi)

We would officially like to thank all for making this journey happens and for all the support received.

Apologize for any mistake along the way since we've been so stressed out that time.

I do miss my independent and crazy life as singletini by I CHERISH every moment i belong to him.

May us be forever.

it's been a while

saya sudah tidak mengupdate dari tahun lepas....

update terkini: saya sudah berkahwin.. inai pon ade tinggal sket2 je lagi ni

update terkini: saya sudah bertukar ke Bangsar...

-end-

Aku wanita biasa

makin pikir makin pedih
huhhhhhh i'm just need a time off from everything especially works

kepala otak saya penat
sarat dengan macam2 menda

i've just knocked my head to the wall
but its still killing me

i'm hurt
i hurt myself by hurting you

mode : sgt mengantuk dan sakit kepala

kurang 30 hari

ade 29 hari lagi sebelum hari tuh
29 hari lagi nk bergelar cik
29 hari lagi nak lepas laku hahah
29 hari lagi sebelum bertanggungjawab ke atas diri org lain selain diri sendiri
29 hari lagi membuat keputusan sendiri
29 days left to become a woman to the man i love

BENGANG gila kinzir

aku paling nyampah bila ade budak bijak, nk tnya soklan tapi taknak rujuk yg pakar, tp tanya aku supaya aku nampak sangat bodoh!

Aku ganyang baru tau, dah tau bijak tanya lagi aku, lempang kang!(#$*%&@

Merepek

Entry yg tiada sebab malah tujuan...

Bila lagi kita mahu begini ??

Penat

I'm tired of the devil

hahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

1 kali hua
2 kali hua
3 kali hua

hua hua hua

Mereka yang sedang mengandung jaga diri baik baik

Oh sangat rase bersalah,

klau jadi ape2 kat ros, tak tau la camna aku nk ngadap dia lagi pasni.

Pasni janji tak mo ajak mak buyung kulu kilir dah. Seb baik darah yang tumpah yg aku tengok tak byk gila. Klau tak mau aku meraung dah kat klinik tuh. Takut seh... haih belum jadik kat diri sendiri lagi.

Kakak clerk sekalian siap dok cita plak pasal pengalaman diorang. Huh gila la. Aku google la menda alah ni. For the first trimester it could be normal to some women and it could not for some other.

Info lanjut rujuk dia ni http://www.epigee.org/pregnancy/bleeding.html.

Dia kata menda ni berlaku masa benih yang dah disenyawa tuh nak implan (menempel) kat uteres. So dia mungkin akan beri gangguan pada lining dalam uterus tuh. Nk cari port yg lebih selesa kot.

Ishk sangat risau la saya. Lepas ni tak leh heret Ros ke mana2 lagi. Bargain hunting for my big day pon kena buat sendiri. Pls jangan involvekan orang ok! In fact saya dah biasa buat semua ni sorang.

So for all mom's to be, please give extra care of yourself, jangan layan sangat anak dara yg suka jalan jalan cari pasal cam I ni hehe.

Ps:/ harini Syida g merewang2 kat bandar time keje lagi. Tapi takpe, saya ganti balik lewat sket, lagipon takde kerja urgent toing toing

Saya Nak Bunga Bulat Bulat Wat Gantung Gantung

Wah saya sudah hampir ke arah kemuflisan uhuks T_T. Sgt sedih bila kita tau kita nk satu benda tuh, tapi kita rase cam terikat dengan kekangan bajet yg ade. Oh!

Last week ditemani En. Ahmad (oh mungkin ade yg mau muntah hijau bila dengar cerita dating saya haha), saya meneruskan pencarian equipment ke arah hari bahgia kami (uwek kuasa 23). Hehe terpaksa la En. Ahmad jadi bodyguard setiajasa saya. Ke hulu Ke hilir tapi tak grab ape pon lagi. Tegang je muka dia lalalalala

Singgah satu kedai bunga yang memang saya nk pegi dari arituh. Wah rasa mau nangis flower ball cantik tapi harga arghhhh memang tak berbaloi. Seb baik mesen ATM tuh bagi saya kuar duit sket je, klau tak saya beli jugak satu.

Oleh kerana saya mmg gila teringin sgt nak bunga bulat2 gantung dan semestinya kaler merah2, saya decide nak wat sendiri bunga tuh. Ape lagi beli bunga kat mydin tak sampai seploh ringgit, dapat beli 15 kuntum bunga plastik. Try2 buat dapat le separa bulat cam ni..

Yob buat tak tahu je dengan symmetry bunga yg tak symmetrical langsung ni (amatur ok!)

Dah tuh adjust here and there n budget2 saya rase saya perlukan dalam 20 plus plus je untuk betul2 jadikan bunga ni bulat2. Punya la tak sabar buat ni, abis jari luka dok potong bunga guna gunting dek kerana playar tinggal kat umah sinun. So final touch lebih kuang camni la..Tetiba rase ade bakat jadi florist plak muhahahah. Oi sila sedar diri kamu tuh Enjin Nyior huhu

Klau cost buat ni dalam 20 hinggit lebih (diingatkan saya tak dpt bunga dari supplier, just beli kat kedai bunga), saya boleh save separuh bahkan lebih dari kos membeli bunga siap, ape salahnya D.I.Y aje. Lantakla klau orang nampak buwok. Janji aku nampak cantik!


Ps:/
1. Huh ade 45 hari lagi. Macam tak ready je lagi
2. Mungkin ade yang bosan dan meluat, saya mintak maaf

Hush Hush Hush

Lagu Hush Hush yg selamba je aku tukor ikut sedap aku

I Need You For Me To Be Strong
I Never Needed You For Pointing Out My Wrongs
I Never Needed Pain, I Never Needed Strain
My Love For You Was Strong Enough You Should Have Known

I Never Needed You For Judgement
I Never Needed You To Question What I Spent
I Will Ask For Help but I Take Care Of Myself,
I Know Why You Think You've Got A Hold On Me

And it's A Little Late For Conversations
Isn't There Anything For You To Say
And My Eye's Hurt, Hand's Shiver, So Look At Me And Listen To Me Because
I don't Want Too, Stay Another Minute
I don't Want You, To Say A Single Word
Hush, Hush, Hush, Hush
There Is No Other Way, I Get The Final Say Because,
I don't Want Too, Do This As Forever
I just Want You, There's Nothing Left To Say
Hush, Hush, Hush, Hush
I've Already Spoken, My Heart Is Broken
Baby Hush, Hush

I Never Needed Your Corrections
On Everything From How I Act To What I Say
I Never Needed Words I Never Needed Hurts
I Just Need You To Be There Everyday

I'm Sorry For The Way I Let Go
From Everything I Wanted When You Came Along
But I'm Never Beaten, Broken not Defeated
I Know Next To You Is Yeah Where I Belong

And it's A Little Late For Explanations
Isn't There Anything That You Can DoAnd My Eye's Hurt, Hand's Shiver,
So You Will Listen When I Say

No More Words, No More Lies, No More Crying
No More Pain, No More Hurt, No More Trying

Moral :/ lagu ni takde ape sebanarnya aku saja suka dengar

Ps:/ learning to accept each other's faults - and choosing to celebrate each other's differences - is the one of the most important keys to creating a healthy, growing, and lasting relationship

Eid Mubarak

Saya nk balik Kampung..
Hari ni Half Day je.. hehe

Selamat Hari Raya Semua
Maaf Zahir Batin

Oh!

Tadi dpt mesej dr Ija, Abah dah boleh discharge dari wad hari ni. Oklah, at least takdela kami risau sgt and tak perlu la saya ulang alik dari Jengka ke Kuantan like everyday. (Everyweek tuh dh macam wajib la).

So back to my wedding progress yang dah macam suam-suam kuku ni. Well, kain yg we bought at Jakel dulu tuh, I decided to only take the satin and go for something yg simple like this. Add up sket sulam2 kaler emas kat bawah baju tuh la, so that bleh match ngn En. Ahmad punye baju. Btw En. Ahmad punye baju dh hantar tempah, cuma sy je belom. Kak Tailor kata lepas raya hantar. Tatutnye.. wat2 tak siap baju teman , adeh! Contingency plan- beli kat Lady first cume kena mintak mak repair jahitan dia. Oh! tak mungkin. Insyaallah sempat kan.

Noted: Pic ni aku smug dr blog sape ntah, tp dh byk dah aku jumpe

Then, on 5th December 09, I decided to go for this, memandangkan tak berjaya berjumpa white+hot red kat wilayah Jengka nun, terpaksa la saya go for option yg a bit maroon la. Boleh la labu. Unfortunately, price yg dioffer kat butik tu sgt la tak munasabah, layakla saya beli je baju tuh siap2 dari sy tempah!

Seterusnya, terpaksala buat keputusan ke butik yg satu ni, because pertama pilihan pelamin yg aku nak (walaupon harganya paling mahal so far), and range of price for the make up, persalinan, aksesories terlebih sket je dr plan asal sy. Harap2nye pelamin dia buat nnt sama la macam yg sy dambakan. Baju ni tak nmpk la cantiknye sbb gantung pada hanger bukan pada patung. Belum ade org pakai lagi, nak je aku request kat akak kedai tuh jgn bagi org sewa smpi aku sewa dulu muhahahhaha.

Last but not least baju utk majlis bertandang. Sy nk buat jugak. Takpe dah janji ngn kak Tailor. Pieces yg macam di bawah cumanye kain lace itu beads dan bunganye warna biru. Just imagine la kain hitam tuh biru. Malangnya saya smpi skrg tak berjaya lagi beli kain kaler kelabu tuh. Ye blame saya En. Ahmad, I failed to decide at very first time. Tp cantik kan. Simpel. Macam saya la.

Utk kasut pulak, I'll go for something like this. Simple dan senang nk pakai. Tu nk pakai masa bernikah and majlis bertandang. Save budget sket.

So far ituh je la progress for my Big day setakat ni. And one more thing wedding ring dah beli, cuma masih belum beli yang Si Dia punye. Saya nekad pas raya ni saya nk cari sungguh2.

Ps:/ hari ni sgt happy, duit simpanan dah cecah 5 angka hehe. Arini tuai duit gaji, esok tuai bonus raya plak. Terima kasih Ya Tuhan.